Because I face this time when I have GAINED weight for the last 3 days. At first I laughed it off and chalked it up to the fact that my scale is super stupid. Really.
But anywho- It still doesn't take the sting away when I look at the scale, hoping to see the numbers drop and WHAM- big ole' fat numbers right in my face that I thought I would never see again.
That is depression.
I found myself wandering through the grocery store isles today just thinking how I would love to make that, or eat that, or bake that. It was torture. I happily walked out not giving in to any temptations- but it was one of those moments where I thought "ah- this isn't worth it. Gonna throw in the towel and just eat"
And this folks- is where I usually quit. I get so tired of feeling like crap after not seeing results or FEELING results.I know I've lost some weight and some inches- so what's the big deal right? Well- the point is that I'm one of those people that need to see results and feel that my sacrifice is working... and to see those number rise- doesn't boost the confidence levels. Why am I eating so few calories, exercising, and sacrificing if the numbers are just going to go up?
I know I know..... it happens. The numbers fluctuate. I keep telling myself the numbers don't matter- it's how I feel that matters. Well- my theory only works when I'm actually SKINNY :) When I've lost the weight and when I reach the point where I like myself again, THEN I don't care what the numbers are. lol
I'm such a hypocrite.
Oh well. I will continue on. I have this and you to be accountable to. So I'll keep going- even though I want to dive into a big piece of chocolate cake right now.
On the flip side- I did lose another 1/2 inch- so VICTORY!!!! (I'll count the small things)
Yesterdays Weight: 168.6
Today's Weight: 169.4
Thanks for your honesty Amber. You're doing great! And Id prefer losing inches over lbs any day! :)
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